Rojo27 [he/him]

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Cake day: July 29th, 2020

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  • I left work later than I usually do yesterday and one the co-workers I’m closest with told me he’s seen the drop in my energy lately. And I’ve felt it, but it hits different when someone else notices and lets you know.

    I don’t really know what I’m going to do though. In the past month work has been kind of stressful, but nothing out of the ordinary. It really what I have going on at home now that has really eaten away at me. I’ve slowly gone back into my shell and now I’m kind of back where I was earlier in the year where I’m not really talking much with any of my friends and it sucks.
















  • Journalpost/vent/family shit

    IDK… I feel like I’m so over my current living arrangement and yet, I know I can’t do anything. And honestly I don’t care that I live with my a parents and thankfully don’t don’t care so much, but my brother just makes it so fucking difficult. Over the years I’ve tried my best to try and smooth things over and walk the tightrope of not offending him in some way, yet he just doesn’t want to change. One thing goes wrong and he fucking gives me the silent treatment for weeks if not months. I can’t fucking live like this. And its just ingrained in me that I should always treat people like one thing can just set them down this path.

    And the biggest thing right now is that with my dad’s health continuing to decline and become less and less independent I just can’t do anything that won’t bother him. Don’t help him enough even though I don’t work from home like he does? Problem. Help him, but make one mistake? Problem. And he always acts like everything I do while I’m trying to help my dad is just wrong even though I generally do things exactly like how he does.

    I’m fucking over it. I’ve done what I could. I’ve had direct conversations letting him know we could just talk things out. But no. We’re in our 30s and he still wants to be confrontational about everything without wanting to work things out.