jadedwench [they/them]

Saw this was a .world account. Come over to dbzero or somewhere sane(er).

Bless you kind fae.

Is there even a remotely comfortable place for people to even talk about subjects like this without it devolving into “not all X” arguments and completely missing the point? I basically can’t talk about any of my day to day experiences with sexism without fearing the majority of lemmy users. I shouldn’t be fucking afraid dammit.

As a daily AMEX user, I think I have only run into 1 place that doesn’t take it here in the states. I do remember England being hit or miss at times, but that was over a decade ago. I don’t remember it being much of an issue in Germany either, but I didn’t use AMEX as often at that time.

Today I was taking meds and immediately could not remember if I had taken Adderall yet, so I waited it out. I was pretty sure I hadn’t, but I also didn’t want to mess up. When it turned 2pm and I had not even remotely started doing anything useful, that answered my question…

Pill organizers don’t help and I need to visually see how many pills are left so I can put in a refill right away. I definitely go on the side of caution when going through all of the pills each morning. I try to make a pile first, but I will also take one or two of them while sorting and not notice. I have to break most of my pills, so I know how each one tastes, the texture, etc. This helps fix mistakes if my brain really doesn’t want to cooperate, with last resort of waiting if it is something really bad if I take double.

• Puts on jeans
• oh wait, I finished knitting that leg warmer, let’s wash it for blocking
• hmm, maybe I will let it dry and mould to my leg while I am working
• removes jeans and puts on long sweater as shorts are nowhere to be found
• watch random YouTube
• ugh, it is sliding down and I need to make the icord
• how do I make an icord again? Which yarn should I use?
• I can’t find that one specific needle size even though it doesn’t matter
• give up and start it
• shouldn’t I be working?
• get annoyed by teams messages and turn it off
• find different video and forget to continue icord
• stare blankly at work and go back to knitting
• what was I doing again?
• fuck, I really need to do work. What time is it?
• fuck. I definitely didn’t take my meds.

Insert other moments of confusion, stimming, and failures as needed.

Those feels. I hate all the time I “waste” due to indecision or distractions, but I still have to feel like I had free time or I will be depressed. It is even worse when things like work or other external factors that I did NOT plan for get in the way. Dopamine…where art thou?

This is why I get frustrated if I have to work late. I still need 4 hours or so of downtime, which means that if I am up until 1-2am and can’t wake up in time for the stupid morning standup, too damn bad. I am privileged that I can do that sometimes, but I have also worked 12-14 hour days for weeks on end at other jobs and even eating seemed like a waste of time.

PS: I do know that you have hunger issues Stamets. If you were in my area, I would feed the hell out of you.

😅 I had a bad morning, ok?

I feel like there are more important issues than obsessing over genitals and monopoly money for the entertainment industry. Maybe slow your roll on murdering people on the other side of the world? How about here too? Improve infrastructure? Housing? Enshrine abortion as a fucking legal right? Wages? Stop erasing the achievements of women and your crusade against dei? I could go on, but my life is already a giant mess this week.

They would not have liked the Humans vs Zombies events.

Same. Now, it is complete shit on Windows, though supposedly it is better on W11, and that is a no go. However, on Mac, it is a dream. On Linux it is a dream. Pgadmin, postgres, mqtt, redis, all the arrs, qbittorrent, jellyfin, and whatever else I want to try and throw away if I don’t like it.

Agreed, this was my first thought. We do not need to make these monsters into a meme. Let them go back into non-existence.

If anyone wants to listen to a 40 minute rant about it, always recommend Angela Collier.

https://youtu.be/0WtyGK7TdCs

Same. I used the little picture widget to cycle adorable animal pictures all day on my home screen. The one little thing that gave me joy, fucking ruined by corporations. While I don’t have a widget anymore, I at least have someplace I can talk for 5 minutes and have someone listen.

Nothing wrong with getting another assessment, especially if everything was diagnosed at once, or out of order, if that makes sense? Sometimes it takes a bit of treatment/meds to detangle the bin of labels.

At the end of the day, if you can get the support you need and any documentation for the harpies, you are already ahead. Now, getting good support? That costs extra with a side of doubt, some F, and +2 to anxiety.

Pretty much. Beta blockers help the jitters and at least take the anxiety down a couple notches. No idea if I get to add autism to the list, but I wouldn’t be particularly surprised. There is a lot of overlap between the two.

My extra unwanted friend is bipolar disorder type 2. It was great when they put me on Citalopram without so much as a checkup at University. I cut myself off after about a year. Fast forward a few years after to find out that is a very bad idea to give to people who have BPD, not that the university knew what was wrong with me…

You assume I check my email.

Thankfully I suck at that, but holy crap it is prevelent in this industry. The alcohol abuse is cray. Doesn’t help when you travel constantly. I don’t travel much anymore, but the people who spend 90+% of the year in the field, while having a family, are fundamentally broken. Fun to party once in a while, but when they do this shit multiple times a week, I don’t understand.

Does Lua rank far below python for you? I have so much rage against it. At least with Python I don’t have to do a bunch of steps to just get it to do something. May take me a while to get through bad Python code, but Lua makes my eyes bleed and I begin to regret my life choices in trying to understand wtf these people wrote.

laughs in PLC